Susanne’s World has been under construction for the past nine months or so. My life turned upside down within the past year as I’ve been turning upside down, literally, advancing my yoga practice by doing handstands. The more work I did on myself, the more I realized I wasn’t truly happy. Today I am grateful I had the courage and the strength to recognize that and make the changes that needed to be made. I got divorced, sold and moved out of my house, and started crossing things off my bucket list. I spent last week in Aruba doing a yoga retreat with Yoga Girl Rachel Brathen, connecting with a beautiful new place on the earth, deepening my yoga practice and truly spending every day exactly how I wanted to. I have a new love in my life (an old friend since seventh grade) and couldn’t be happier. He joined me on the yoga retreat, and we had an amazing time together!
I was starstruck when I first saw Rachel and Dennis. She is an internet celebrity, someone who inspires me daily with her pictures, videos, and words. Seeing her in person at the welcome dinner was amazing. I was giddy, hugging her saying, “I love you!” She was so cool and down to earth with a friendly smile. She shares highlights and lowlights from her life on social media, so it was like meeting someone I already knew a little about. We talked a little about her wedding and honeymoon as well as the recent passing of one of her dogs. Out on the beach, there were baby sea turtles in protected areas hatching and making their way to the sea. I wasn’t lucky enough to see one of them, but some other people in our group did and posted videos and pictures. We had a lovely dinner and met new friends, enjoyed the sunset and starry night sky.
This is a typical view from the beach chairs in front of Manchebo Beach Resort & Spa, where we stayed. We did our daily handstand in front of our spot that day. Instead of beach umbrellas, there were beach tiki huts, and the kind staff at the resort set up the chairs and brought drinks. Eagle Beach is the widest beach on the island of Aruba, and our resort didn’t have any kids activities, so it was peaceful and serene. There was a relatively long walk on the white sands until you hit the turquoise waters due to the wideness of the beach. The sand was white and didn’t get too hot. The color of the water was something I’ve never seen before. Bright turquoise is the best description I can muster. There were gentle waves and plenty of room to swim and float around. A line of buoys contained the swimming area. I swam out there and back a few times. The water got too deep to stand right away so it was fun to take a little swim.
We had two Stand Up Paddleboard (SUP) yoga lessons on Palm Beach near the high rise hotels. It was the more touristy and more crowded part of the island, but the water was still amazing! It was waist deep and calm. We used special boards made for doing yoga (Boga boards). They were wide and rounded on the ends and had a sticky yoga mat on the top. Doing yoga on the water is especially challenging because the stability of the floor is no longer there. You must release control to your surroundings and adjust accordingly. It works all the small muscles of your core and other places in your body in ways you normally don’t use them. The warrior series was the hardest of all the poses we did. Once one person fell, it was like a domino effect because the boards were so close together. Everybody fell in the water at some point or another, and I loved the metaphor with real life. When you have difficulty and fall down, laugh, smile, fall, and get back on the board. The other life skill it helps develop is focusing on the moment. If you let your mind wander and lose your focus, it’s pretty easy to fall off the board, so it really required being in the present moment.
Our group to an exciting hike on the north shore of Aruba to a natural pool. It was located in the Arikok National Park, a large undeveloped area with a desert landscape, rocky trails to hike, bike, ride horses and four wheel drive vehicles. There were beautiful ocotillo and other kinds of cactii, wild goats, and a varied terrain much different than the beachy areas. Along the hike, we stopped to play at a beach where the waves are forced between rocky outcroppings. Rachel said we had about ten minutes to play, so I jumped right in! Unlike the waters in Eagle and Palm Beaches, these waters were rough. The waves were big, and I enjoyed body surfing in the crashing water. The water took my hair tie and one of my earrings; I threw the other earring into the ocean as an offering. I was exhilerated and felt that I could have stayed there longer to play!
The natural pool had rocky outcroppings, and the water from the waves crashed over and formed the pool. It was so cool. There was another smaller pool up a little higher than this one. It felt like a hot tub. Saw lots of little crabs camoflauged on some vegetation growing on the rocks. I brought my goggles and dived under the water to see many tropical fish teeming in the waters. You can see a wind farm in the distance. I climbed up and sat to watch the ocean for a bit, contemplating its vastness and its incredible power. The sun was shining, and the wind was blowing. What an amazing place and an amazing moment!
That night, we had a restorative yin yoga session. This was the magical view as I walked into class. Everybody was tired from an active day. Yin yoga is calming and relaxing. We hold poses for longer (up to five or six minutes) deepening the stretch to the connective tissues. In contrast to vinyasa flow where movements are tied to each breath and we generate heat in the body, a yin practice is cooling and still. The hardest pose we did (for me) was frog pose, and we held it for a while. Rachel talked about how we hold of lot of tension in our hips and frog pose helps to release it. We did heart openers after that to release whatever emotional tension arised. It’s a soft practice that feels like a whole other place when it’s over. Holding hands with my man during savasana made the experience even more magical.
Rachel taught us a lot about yoga including workshops on handstands, headstands, forearm stands, arm balances, and paid special attention to teaching us proper technique and alignment for chatarunga to upward facing dog to downward facing dog. There were two yin yoga sessions, and the rest of them were intense and challenging. Dennis taught a class too, and it was the hardest class I’ve done in a long time! We worked hard on our core strength as it’s a fundamental for many advanced skills. I was thrilled to get some personal attention from her and am working on the pointers she gave me. For example, when we have hands down on the ground they should be firmly planted with the most pressure on the thumb knuckle and first two finger knuckles. When we get tired, we tend to shift weight to the outsides of our hands causing the thumbs to curl instead of remain intact on the mat. I never noticed I did that before. She said it’s a common mistake. It’s something I really pay attention to now. I also learned alot about how to do chatarunga and upward facing dog properly. I didn’t know to shift forwards a bit from plank so when you drop into chatarunga your elbows can stay above the wrists and make a ninety degree angle. Then, shifting backwards before going into upward facing dog allows the shoulders to stay above the wrists. I think I’ve been doing those two poses slightly wrong all along. I tried a forearm stand for the first time ever. It was not solid at all, so I think I will follow Rachel’s advice to continue strengthening and preparing for the pose by practicing dolphin (downward facing dog on the forearms) more often. The arm balance workshop was my favorite because I’ve been wondering how to get into those poses for a while now, and Rachel gave us clear instructions and demonstrations. Now they make sense to me, and I can work them into my practice more often. I got a footprint sized bruise on my upper arm from working so hard in class! I was able to try all the arm balances she taught us but still have a lot of work to do.
Below are three links to videos from the handstand workshop.
We met a lovely couple from Norway and enjoyed many good times eating, drinking, and laughing during our retreat. They had an awesome idea to go to the go kart track for racing. It’s something I probably wouldn’t have thought of doing, but I am so glad we went! My man won the race, lapping me three times, as he is a seasoned motorcycle racer. I didn’t mind coming in last place as I know racing is not my forte, but it sure was fun to do. Despite the hot sun and the sweaty helmet, I was smiling and laughing my way around the track. After we were done we thought it was a good spot for a handstand picture.
We took advantage of the all-inclusive meal option at the resort and enjoyed al fresco dining every day. Breakfast and dinner were at this restaurant by the pool, and lunches were at the cafe in the forefront of the picture. The views and the service were outstanding. Birds and iguanas joined us for breakfast every day, and the moon and stars twinkled over head during poolside dinners at night. The staff at the resort were incredibly warm and friendly. It’s a smaller, two story, hotel and I really enjoyed the personal attention we got during our stay. I have lots of food allergies, and I was impressed by their ability to accomodate my needs. In addition there were healthy fruit and vegetable based smoothies available every morning. Yum! We went out to dinner with the group once, visiting Rachel and Dennis’s favorite restaurant in town called Yemanja. It was a wood fired grill featuring delicious seafood, steaks, and vegetarian/vegan food. I got a superfood salad packed with greens, veggies, berries, and seeds and a ribeye steak with scallops on top.
Our group took a sailing and snorkeling trip on a party catamaran from Palm Beach. What a fun activity! I don’t drink liquor except for (good) tequila, so it wasn’t a drinking day for me but for everybody else it was. We sailed up the shore and then stopped to snorkle first at a place right off the beach, not too deep. I snorkeled to the thore then right then left and back to the boat. It was amazing! I think I saw a baraccuda. I swam back toward the shore and then noticed the boat was raising the ladder. I guess I didn’t hear them blow the horn, so I swam back to the boat knowing they wouldn’t leave without me and rejoined the group. Others stayed on the boat to play on the water slide and jump off the side.
We sailed some more and then stopped to snorkle in sixty foot deep waters. There were different kinds of fish in that deeper water, and I thought it was interesting there were layers of different schools of fish in the waters. Some of them stayed low while others were higher up. I dived down a few times as far as I could (holding my ears so the pressure didn’t hurt) and then floated for a few seconds in awe as I was surrounded by schools of bright and beautiful fish. How cool to be in their world just for a few seconds. I ventured out a litte farther and then lost sight of any fish, so I came back toward the boat more this time.
Here we all are, happy and high on life after the fun outing.
On the second day of SUP yoga, I wasn’t feeling too well. I was a little seasick after not having enough sleep and having a little too much fun the night before. To make things more challenging, I also got the orange board…the board that whoever is last and needs a board uses. The orange board is narrower and pointier than the other blue Boga boards. I took a “I’m a rock star. I can do this.” attitude and did my best. It sure was harder than the blue board I used during the first class!
We made new friends with people from all over the world. In addition to meeting other americans (Texas, Virginia, California, Washington, Arkansas, North Carolina, Colorado, New Jersey), we met people from Norway, Sweden, Canada, Brazil,and Aruba. Our new friends from Sweden even brought their teenage daughter along.
Since I wasn’t feeling well after SUP yoga class #2, I had to say goodbye to Rachel there on the beach. The whole group was walking down to a beach bar to continue the fun, and my flight was early the next morning. I thanked her for everything she taught me that week and for inspiring me. I couldn’t stop hugging her, just one more! My heart was full of love and gratitude. Just for fun, I asked if we could take the moment to get a handstand picture together. It was my last chance until who knows when. She happily obliged and went upside down waiting patiently for me to try and try again to join her long enough for a picture. She was so patient, hanging out in a beautiful handstand encouraging me saying, “you got it Susanne.” She right, I got it. Thank you Rachel!
This is a pictue of the sunrise at the airport when I was leaving. No filter, no hi definition enhancement. Just pure Aruba bliss. I am so grateful for my time there and can’t wait until the next time I can visit. Will have to stay for two weeks next time!
Thanks for reading this entry. Peace out!